| I never write in this thing because I don't usually have anything to get out... I don't really stress out, I 'm not usually busy enough to have many worries on my mind, and most of the time life is pretty good. Which isn't to say life isn't pretty good now, it's just different. And stressful. And busy. And a bit worrisome.
It really is funny how one month, one week even, can change your life entirely. All of a sudden you have a different set of responsibilities, a new set of experiences, and a new set of problems. You're worried all the time, but you don't know about what. You're always busy... but you don't know where the time goes. You're not as close to the people most important to you because of circumstance and maybe some other reasons and it seems you can't do anything about it no matter how hard you try.
It's interesting how one part of your life could be going great while the other is falling apart. It's a sad time when you realize you're not invincible, you realize the people you care about won't always be there for you even if you're there for them, and especially when you realize everything you know and care about might not be there for you when you wake up in the morning. Every day is a new day, and with it comes new trials, challenges, and responsibilities; you never know what's coming and you sure can't get ready for it, because life doesn't work that way.
But it's not all bad.
-Look back but don't go back; afterall, you've already been there. There's a difference in remembering good old times and trying to cling to them when they're gone. The trick is to keep making new ones, heh.
-Expect the unexpected and live in the moment; dwelling on the past and future dulls your senses to the present. If you're too preoccupied with them, you might miss the now.
-Step back and check yourself time to time; rather than getting too caught up in the past and the future, there is a tendency to get too caught up with the present as well. Climb out of yourself and your life for a second and get some perspective.
-Take care of yourself and get some "me" time; it's important to take care of your own self in addition to trying to help the whole world. What good can you be to anyone else if you're not even functional? Keep it together. It's also important to ration off some time away for play in your own world; you don't always have to be part of the crowd.
These seem to be the most important of many new things i've had to do to keep from going insane. Everyone has their own ways to cope with their life and their own given situations; mine doesn't always work but at least i'm trying. I think it's most important to have a positive outlook and know everything will work out. And even if it doesn't... at least you're thinking optimistically, and that's one step in the right direction. Because i've realized the world tends to unfold as it will, and the way you interpret and experience life is how you live it. If you're happy... then you will be. If you tell yourself you're sad and depressed and you can't find a way out of your own personal hole.. well, you've already given up, haven't you?
So stop feeling down, stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop saying "why me".... and just live.
Whew, I feel much better now. ^_^
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| itd be nice sometimes if things stayed the same... and sometimes youre locked in a point in time thats fantastic and would want it to last forever.. only you realize its long gone and the only thing thats still waiting around for it is you. when you realize that, you realize its time to move on.
sad? yes.
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| the 26" lcd beauty is on its way!! it cuts a path accross the nation (assuming it was shipped from the main location of the store in new york, but i guess it could have also shipped from any number of warehouses the company might own and could theoretically get here a lot sooner than the maximum of 10 days shipped that would happen if it WAS indeed coming from new york and not some other location cause realistically it probably shipped from somewhere here in california and MIGHT get here a whole lot sooner which would ROCK... yeah...) coming to my door and bringing hd rezzes to my xbox 360 making it THAT much more fun to play. great too, cause itll fit great in my dorm room next year. juuust.... fantastico. heh. |
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| hotter than hell, literally.
but everything is good. ^_^
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| your face smells like bags of burning feces.
you know who you are.
jen.
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